Bellx in Color

Miriam Meza is the founder of Bellx in Color, which is dedicated to increasing online visibility of men and women of different skin tones in the fashion industry. Meza has showcased exclusive fashion designs by herself. Bellx in Color also features fashionitx of color in curated photo-shoots in effort to reinforce that beauty comes in different skin tones.


“Growing up I didn’t see Mexican women on the front page of Vogue. I didn’t see people like me and it made me question if I was beautiful. As a recovered anorexic and first generation immigrant, I was determined to follow my passion and spark conversation on the lack of diversity and sizes in the industry through innovative content.” -Miriam Meza  

We are Bellx in Color.


“The perfect fusion of pleather and floral pattern. Carefully tailored together, they give you the perfect look to walk out with confidence. The picture was carefully curated and captured in the streets of NOHO, NY.”

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An Unfamiliar Place

My foot’s through the door and there’s green all around me. The shops and fast food restaurants morphed into trees and more trees. No longer do the buildings graze the polluted skies. I can see stars now. I can see the stars because I can see the night. No longer is it a black restricted square in my room window. I can walk home at night without a shiver thrown down my spine


Refusing the Melting Pot

Growing up in the Bronx,
I confess that it was hard for me
to love those blocks,
that never had as many parks
as empty fenced-off lots,
and my mama couldn’t
trust the schools
were a good place to
be taught.

Those blocks where
Halloween was one of the scariest
days of the year,
and at all costs
we kept the door locked.

To this day
I don’t enjoy the holiday
I prefer my candy store bought.

It was hard to love
that Section 8 apartment,
with so many roaches,
no amount of traps or poison
could stop.

I think I’ll always hate them
for the many ruined
cereal box.

I loved the car we had,
til it got jacked
and stripped for parts.

The cops later found its
empty carcass,
told us we should probably
find a better place to park.

It was hard for me to love those blocks,
that will probably never have as many parks
as empty fenced-off lots,

But I was grateful for the men
who gave me pastelitos and frío-fríos,
even when I didn’t
have enough change.

For my Dominican barber,
who gave me a dope fade AND
Some M&M’s if I sat still and behaved.

I was grateful for the bodegueros
who treated me well,
and knew me by name.

For the babysitter who didn’t charge
my mom more when she got off
from work late.

gentrifiers have been
coming into the Bronx
after decades where our borough
was left in
the hard knocks.

It’s raising rents and closing businesses,
but it’s our community that really suffers,
as we slowly get displaced into White America’s
abandoned suburbs.

Our lives made further diasporic,
coming to feel singular and outnumbered.
A culture scattered, lost
to the forces of
hegemonic urban planners
and police scanners.

For all my life,
it’s been hard for me to love those blocks,
but I grew up in the Bronx,
and I don’t want us to lose ourselves
in America’s
white-washed melting pot,

le falta sazón

by Henry Gonzalez

Photo by Bianka Bell

“El Poder Del Pueblo”: The Whispered Prayers of the Dominican Diáspora in the South Bronx



Photo of the South Bronx by Pamela Victoria Munoz

If Atlas opted to bear the weight of an entire planet instead upon his face, maybe then would that very mass encompass the crushing weight of the multidimensional identity lodged upon my mask. Awkwardly sustained by the fragile stature of my neck, this world of people, generations, prejudices, and myself seesaws back and forth upon the tip of my nose as I desperately attempt to maintain some sort of equilibrium. The tightrope walker mustn’t stumble; this is the balancing act that I must uphold in order to sustain — to preserve — myself.

El refrán dice that diamonds are made under intense pressure, but there are days when the heavens themselves never felt so dense. In the Bronx, every one and their mothers look like me, and I look exactly like them. Los niñitos on my block carry pounds of gorgeously kinky hair upon their heads up until they’re old enough to take the heat lashed on by the Dominican salons, an act of alchemy where las hermanas del calor transform baby girl’s frizzy crown into silk. “Pelo malo,” dice tu mama, to which baby girl responds: “pero mami, mi pelo nunca se he portado mal”. I beg to differ; her pelo is mean-as-hell because baby girl’s mane swallowed up the salonist’s entire comb and coughed it back up into pieces as an act of resistance. Our skin works in much the same way. The latinxs within the community, a blend of the Dominican and Puerto-Rican diáspora, and the hijxs de la diáspora produced from it, waited for winters to bleach their leather skin back to a colonial past, piel stained and blessed by the Sun alongside their Taino/Afro ancestors; others — the same folks who’d take delight in the ways in which their hair would shatter timid combs — did not mind being referred to as “morenita”; they waited patiently for summers to come.

On Sunday mornings, los vecinos would bless you with twenty Hail Mary’s and two sloppy kisses to the cheeks. As a child, I’d pay close attention to las vecinas’ sharp adobo stained nails; with their right hand, they were ready to snatch any one that came for their life; with their left hand, they mastered the art of measuring the right amount of sasón to add to their special paella de mariscos, an act of love and resistance against the bland-as-hell gringo food that had been introduced by the neocolonialists gentrifying mi barrio. I’d watch Doña Rosa fumble around with her rosary during Wednesday group prayers on the fourth floor in Mami’s — the loud-ass vecina on the fourth floor — crib. The weight of years creasing the edges of their eyes and mouths revealed the prayers that they would whisper to themselves after taking in the body and blood of their Cristo; they longed for a heaven that would erase the erosion of their faces and spirits. Womyn would decorate their heavily calloused hands in rings that bore their names, while boldly wearing crop tops to reveal the scars etched across their navels — sometimes from forced c-sections — as proof of the pride they have raised: their children. Sometimes, mothers don’t live long enough to teach their daughters the difference between a caballero and a tiguere; mi mama trato, but fate was not kind to her. I was 13-years-old and had just started my period when she abandoned me for another world, taking with her my love of miracles as well as my love of a white dios that falsely promised salvation to the luchadxr; I only now realize how much this dios hated me for my untamed hair and my wider set nose, much in the same way as the gringos who rebranded my South Bronx as the Piano District hated me. Para el carajo with him. I tell my closest friends now that I don’t believe in god (yes, lowercase god) not because I don’t believe he actually exists somewhere sitting idly as my mother suffered, but because I want him to know that I am rebelling against his being. I am choosing to believe in myself over him.

The men leave home at 4 p.m. returning to their daughters by 4 a.m. I barely recognize my father in the mornings; he grows older every night. Perhaps they bring back a nickel or two in their pockets. Despite that, they’re always rich enough to hand us our sour patch kids, just as they promised. My father’s arms, sore from holding a taxi wheel for hours, are still strong enough to pick up both his daughters, and fling them across his shoulders, so that they might be able to reach for something that he was never able to reach himself. Our dreams are now his wishes.

Families crossed entire oceans, far beyond the comfort of native soil beneath their feet, dream after dream deferred, at the slight hope that one day, their great, great, great granddaughter (their final dream: The Great American Dream) will actually be just that: great. I’d like to hope that they didn’t look back when they dropped their names in the ocean in exchange for new ones. I can only image how difficult it must have been for them to reintroduce themselves.

Now, more than ever, I struggle with my own identity because these narratives — that of my community, friends, family, and ancestors — are tangled into mine; like my hair, these intersecting narratives will unapologetically resist against, and shatter, anything that tries to neatly partition it. It demands that it be understood and loved as a complex and intertwined entity — that it is enough.

At Cornell, people do not look like my vecinos. Whereas I would have been praised for touching the hot paella and learning that it burns, failure doesn’t work in the same way within institutions of higher education. Failure haunts me; because my education is a gamble, I could lose it all if I were to let my untreated anxiety and depression — my mental illnesses political in and of itself as it intersects with my latinidad, multiraciality of white/afro/indigenous, poverty, atheism, and womynhood — keep me tethered to my bed during mornings when the world feels far too heavy for my face to carry. My financial security is contingent upon a certain grade — I am reduced to digits.


There are days when I can do more than just wake up. There are days when I don’t give a fuck and I let the hood flow out of me within oppressive academic spaces; I disrupt respectability and what it means to be “educated”. I can be academic, hood, and feminista all at once. Just as I expect for the ways in which I have, and continue to, educate myself to be honored as valid within academic spaces, I also expect that this world may honor the experiences and physical presences of my father and aunt who have educated me.


The village of people who raised me have never made me more proud of being Dominican — especially as I decolonize my identity and reclaim my afro/indigenous narratives — than I am now. I love that every morning when I have to walk up the slope in front of my dorm, I can put on some Gilberto Santa Rosa and salsa my way up the godforsaken climb just as I did back in Harlem during my hour long commute to high school. I love that my hair is political and that it has a mind of its own, just like mi angel de la guardia of a mother and my father. I love that luchando is a habit — because I’ve witnessed it being done over, and over, and over again from my own community. Indeed, it does take a village to raise a child. More than that, I love who I am. I love myself, and that is a revolutionary act in and of itself. Everyday I see myself growing (perhaps, not vertically), along with everyone else around me back home. This is the place that my father had us reach for and there are entire stratospheres that I have yet to see for myself. I only regret that I cannot bring him and my aunt along with me sometimes so that they may witness for themselves the fruit of their labor here at Cornell. The world has grown three times its size and it feels heavier than ever before — I hope it doesn’t stop. Despite the tremendous weight I carry now, I could not imagine a greater honor. I will proudly carry my pueblo along with me.

Because of everything that I am, the whispered prayers and narratives of the Dominican Diáspora in the South Bronx, este “Nuevo Mundo” es mio para reclamar: this “New World” is mine to reclaim.

Melanin Confession: The White Latinx Experience

“Okay, so I—I don’t know where I fit into all of this because I’m half white, half Latino. I’m ethnically-ambiguous, but I think people just assume that I’m white… so I kind of, like, fly under the radar in that sense… It’s really strange because identifying as Latino but coming off as white puts me in a weird position. People of both sides will say anything in front of me, ‘cus they think I’m with them. So I’ve found that I’ve had a lot less ignorant comments directed at me… I find that people feel comfortable saying them with me, even though I’m in a room full of Caucasian students talking about Latinos and I’m like ‘Alright, hold on, time out, I’m here”. Or if I’m in a room full of kids who aren’t white, they’ll be talking about white kids and I’m like ‘Hold on, still here’. I think the strangest time that happened was when I was with a group of people—mostly white students; a couple of black students were around—and someone was rapping and came to the part where he was supposed to say the N-word. And he kinda just cut off, and looked around the room… then these two girls started whispering and said ‘Oh, now that the room is diversified we can’t say that anymore’. And I got really uncomfortable for the obvious reasons… the assumption that we were in a white space and that minority students sort of invited themselves in really bothered me. I was raised with Puerto Rican pride; my dad always told me ‘be proud of being Latino, be proud’. So I felt kind of indirectly… not attacked, but sort of… othered, in that sense. Like I was in their space, even though it was everyone’s space. And so I didn’t say anything; I just totally let them off the hook. And it was also sort of strange because I didn’t want to correct them and bring up the issue of ‘what are you?’, ‘you don’t look x, y or z’…

I think there are a lot of people at Bard who have the right idea about talking about race and approaching it. And I don’t want to tell this story and ignore those people who consciously try to be aware of the space they’re in and how they welcome people into the space because there’s a lot of good things that do happen. But I think there’s a lack of confidence a lot of times at Bard in terms of how people talk about things. Like in classrooms, people have really interesting thoughts, but they preface them with ‘oh, I don’t have any experience with this, so…’. I think one of the best things you can do for someone is to prove them wrong. People should be conscious of where they are and who’s in the room—not only their words but their demeanor and inflection—but I think a lot of that awkwardness could be alleviated if people just said what they wanted to. I don’t know if that makes any sense…

The other side of it are people who think they’re doing the right thing and do it with such confidence—like the people in my story—but they’re just not. I remember there was some awful yak about someone wanting their summer tan goals to be like getting searched at an airport, as if that was a skin color. And then I remembered my parents being interrogated and it was humiliating and awful… It’s a false comparison… In order to move beyond this awkward place, you have to speak with confidence… know that you could be wrong, and be prepared to deal with that. And I’ve encountered either people who have really good thoughts and don’t know how to present them, or [people who] have really, really wrong opinions and thoughts and think they’re doing a service by voicing them, and I think those two ends of the spectrum need to be corrected.”

– Confused


Interview by Bianka Bell